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Jessie J - Who You Are (Boombox Series) (by JessieJVEVO)

"Who You Are"

I stare at my reflection in the mirror:
“Why am I doing this to myself?”
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.
No, no, no, no, no…

Don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart.
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
(who you are [x11])

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould, yeah!
The more I try the less it’s working, yeah
‘Cause everything inside me screams
No, no, no, no, no…

Don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart.
But tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
There’s nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no’s, egos, fake shows, like WOAH!
Just go, and leave me alone!
Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight,
With a smile, that’s my home!
That’s my home, no…

No, no, no, no, no…
Don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay…
Sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart.
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
yeah yeah yeah

Church? Why?

 I want to touch on something that I feel is important. Why is it that every church builds the emotion? I know that a little of emotion is okay, but churches take it to the extreme. I believe that God makes an unsaved person know they need to be saved. I also don’t believe that you have to say a prayer to become saved.

 The emotion that churches build hinders the holy spirit. If the Lord is moving in a church, he is going to move in it. I grew up southern baptist and gay, so I had a double dose of it. I remember sitting in church every Sunday and Wednesday watching these people that have walked the aisle before, re-walking it. You know what that is? That is emotion, emotion sets in self doubt. You know if you are saved, and you know if the lord is working at your heart to be saved.

  Another thing is scaring people into being saved. I do not agree with this at all, and I know the Lord doesn’t either. These programs like “Judgement House”, and “Heaven Gates, Hells Flames” isn’t right. They send a group of people in, these people can be mixed, some saved, some unsaved. Then by the time they are finish walking through it, everyone is scared so it leads to confusion and doubt.

  You know for so many years I dealt with my inside thoughts and what I was being told in church, and I’m not going to lie, I walked the aisle five times. I know that the Lord saved me earlier, but I couldn’t understand why I was having thoughts of what at the time was considered “hell bound thoughts”. So I automatically thought that I had to get re-saved because of my wrong thoughts. The thoughts wasn’t wrong, they came with me when I was born, and don’t start on that “Your not born gay”, “You choose to be gay.” bullshit. If you could actually “pray the gay away”, I would be straight right now, because there has been a lot of praying and crying over the matter.

  I am going to sum it up with this fact, Houston Road Baptist Church was hell on earth for me. I was picked on, called fag, was told I was going to hell, and so many other things. I “choose” not to go to church because a lot of people at church think they are God, and I don’t like to be judged. If you have kids teach them not to hate, and that some of the things that is said in church isn’t towards just them. Church will screw up someones life, and will help in ways also. I know this because it happen to me.

  I know a lot of people are going to read this and pick the ” Matthew’s Gay” out of it, and will have know idea what the rest says. I suggest reading it all, because the people that pick the “Matthew’s gay” out of it, is the people I am talking about. Another thing I need to clean up before I post this. I do believe in God, I have a strong relationship with God, and I pray everyday… oh and I’m still saved. Once saved always saved.

  What I want everyone to get out of this, is the fact that judging people is not your job. I know that people will never stop judging because it’s human nature, but at least try to think before you speak.

Live, Laugh, Love

—Matty

Acceptance can kill you!!

 I am writing this because I really think it needs to be addressed. If a guy or girl comes out as a gay individual to you they respect and love you. These situation are hard for the individual that is coming out. It is also hard when the person coming out gets met with hatred and words of hatred. It is important to remember that coming out doesn’t change the person. They are still your son, daughter, parent, .etc. You will laugh at the same thing, finish each others sentences, and love each other as y’all always have.

   The reason I am writing this is because I heard about a young man coming out to his Parents, siblings, and friends and was met with hatred. It got to a point were the brother of the young man told him that he should just kill himself. This situation happen a daily basis. This is completely uncalled for, and a situation like this is where suicide comes into the picture. I found this story so disturbing.

   There is something else I would like to bring up. It is the fact that people think that a gay guy or girl can’t have a relationship with God. I’m sorry but I completely disagree with this. When coming out as being gay it doesn’t mean that the morals the parent have instilled in the guy or girl has left them. The person still has convictions, and they know when they are in a uncomfortable situation, because they are using the morals that were taught to them.

   I know I am going to get a lot of flack from this post, and I am ready for it, at least I hope I am. I want this to be read and if it helps only one person, I have done my job. I just ask that when you are faced with a situation like a person coming out to you, you respect and support the person. The rumor that Gays, Lesbians are sexually perverted is completely untrue. There are a few I have seen that need to reassess the morals in life, but that is in all groups not just the homosexual group. Also if your are friends with a gay guy or girl it doesn’t mean they want to change you or date you. They usually just seeing trust and acceptance in you.

   I feel I am stepping out on a limb here and that limb is going to be shot down… This isn’t a easy thing to post, but I need too.

Much Love, and Respect,

Matthew D. McCraney

I believe you sir are the false prophet. There are millions of people who worship you. #justsaying!!

Now all you fans don’t start sending me death threats, it is only an opinion….. 

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