I want to touch on something that I feel is important. Why is it that every church builds the emotion? I know that a little of emotion is okay, but churches take it to the extreme. I believe that God makes an unsaved person know they need to be saved. I also don’t believe that you have to say a prayer to become saved.
The emotion that churches build hinders the holy spirit. If the Lord is moving in a church, he is going to move in it. I grew up southern baptist and gay, so I had a double dose of it. I remember sitting in church every Sunday and Wednesday watching these people that have walked the aisle before, re-walking it. You know what that is? That is emotion, emotion sets in self doubt. You know if you are saved, and you know if the lord is working at your heart to be saved.
Another thing is scaring people into being saved. I do not agree with this at all, and I know the Lord doesn’t either. These programs like “Judgement House”, and “Heaven Gates, Hells Flames” isn’t right. They send a group of people in, these people can be mixed, some saved, some unsaved. Then by the time they are finish walking through it, everyone is scared so it leads to confusion and doubt.
You know for so many years I dealt with my inside thoughts and what I was being told in church, and I’m not going to lie, I walked the aisle five times. I know that the Lord saved me earlier, but I couldn’t understand why I was having thoughts of what at the time was considered “hell bound thoughts”. So I automatically thought that I had to get re-saved because of my wrong thoughts. The thoughts wasn’t wrong, they came with me when I was born, and don’t start on that “Your not born gay”, “You choose to be gay.” bullshit. If you could actually “pray the gay away”, I would be straight right now, because there has been a lot of praying and crying over the matter.
I am going to sum it up with this fact, Houston Road Baptist Church was hell on earth for me. I was picked on, called fag, was told I was going to hell, and so many other things. I “choose” not to go to church because a lot of people at church think they are God, and I don’t like to be judged. If you have kids teach them not to hate, and that some of the things that is said in church isn’t towards just them. Church will screw up someones life, and will help in ways also. I know this because it happen to me.
I know a lot of people are going to read this and pick the ” Matthew’s Gay” out of it, and will have know idea what the rest says. I suggest reading it all, because the people that pick the “Matthew’s gay” out of it, is the people I am talking about. Another thing I need to clean up before I post this. I do believe in God, I have a strong relationship with God, and I pray everyday… oh and I’m still saved. Once saved always saved.
What I want everyone to get out of this, is the fact that judging people is not your job. I know that people will never stop judging because it’s human nature, but at least try to think before you speak.
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